AGM Pics

ni je pics yang dapat diselamatkan..yang lain blurrrrrrrr..arghhhh!!!

The Last Meeting..

under that tree..
i waited for you..
you still didnt show up
your lovely face..

people were looking at me
and i feel so stupid..
standing there like an idiot..
felt like giving up..

suddenly the winds blew..
you were there..
this time you were in that pink dress..
you brought something for me..

you gave me 11 roses..
it was kinda weird though
then you said that..
this would be the last time we met..

you have to go far away somewhere..
i offer you for a walk by the lake..
finally you said yes
and i was sooo...ehem-ehem.

suddenly the wind blew again..
all the roses that you gave me..
blew up into the air..
what does that mean?

i could see the look on your face..
i will miss you...
you give me that smile..
the smile that i could never forget..

now it was time for you to go...
it was so hard to let you go...
but i couldnt do anything...
so off you go..

into the thin air...
left me standing there all alone..
i shall treasure our romantic moment
in my heart...

oh WAIT!!! i forgot to ask you something..
what are you actually???
hm never mind...
i shall hold our promise..
i shall wait for you faithfully...

You Again?

i saw you again..
appeared under that tree from nowhere..
i braved myself..
my heart felt like popping out from my chest..

your eyes was soooo big..
what species are you?
that red dress of yours..
hottens up the atmosphere..

u refused to have a drink with me
under the starry nite..
what a waste..
suddenly you touched my hand..

cold as ice!!
you're not human are you?
am i rite?
then you cried..

tears fell down like the shining pearl..
you dissapeared into the thin air..
upset with my question..
hope to see you again..

cos i wanna say sorry for my behaviour..
i was so ashamed with myself..
feeling down..
need to get back up..

i've tried hundreds of times,
i fell for every single one of it..
does that mean i have to give up?
nope..
i must tried although i might fall again..

cos from that..
you will get the strenght to get back up again..

i shall wait for u again..

to be continued...

Hm I Wonder..

i wonder..
God..why you put me into this?..
hm...
is this some kind of preparation for me?
to get myself ready for any other obstacle in the future..?

thank you for giving me this feeling..
thanks..
whatever it is..
there must be a reason for all this..

so much thing in this world that wont go our way..
like shakespeare said..
we all are only the actors..
just go with the flow..

with some effort..
with god permission..it will change..
please get me out of this..
please..i beg you..
i leave everything to you..

make it a fine one for me..
cos we only live once in this world unpredictable world..

SHE....

Something in the way she moves..
she attract me like no other lover.
something in the way she woos me..
i dont want to give up.

you know i believe in how..
somewhere in her lovely smile.
she knows that
i dont need no other lover

something in her style
that shows me you are asking..
will my love grow?
i dont know...
u think u hurt me..
i dont think so..

you stick around now..it may show..

Wake UP!!!

i look up to the sky,
what a wonderful creation..
i wonder how it looks like up there?
eternal life awaits us up there..
heaven..or hell..who knows where we might end up?
all we can do is..
to do our very best....

this world...
our body..is only just like a vehicle..
for our soul to live in this world...
humans..only focused..
in improving their outer side..
plastic surgery and all that....
we forgot to improve our inner side..
the soul that make our body move and breathe..

now only i understand that looks is not everything..
so,WAKE UP!!!from this pathetic system..
unleash the real you...
remember your..creator
the one and only...

i wanna be free..

I wish I was a bird, I can fly so high above the sky and be free. I want to fly as high as I can. I want to be free. Yes free. That's what I want. Free from this emotional burden that has been haunting me ever since, like, forever. I don't want to be a prisoner to my own feeling. I want to be vindicated. But then I realize that I don't have to be like a bird to be free. I don't have to fly as high as the bird to be free. All I need to be is simply be free.

And ever since I have that level of realization I now realize that we are all captivated by what we all want to be free from: not only from emotions but from so many thing such as materialism, false perception, judgemental and so forth.

Coming to this level of realization does not mean that I am free, but at least I am on my way to vindicate myself. Another thing that I have come to realize is that there's so many people out there who is not free, from what they want to be free from. As a matter of fact, they don't even realize that they are in prison.

mysterious shadow

i sat on the table..
and then you came...
wat a beautiful face u have
no man will never say no to you..

you ignore them all
but you smile at me..
who are you??
ive never seen you before..

your eyes..shining like the stars..
i was totally melted
but why??
why were you standing there?

under the big old tree..
the tree that has a lots of..
memories...
why??

now you're gone..
leaving me clueless..
your smile still haunting me..
now..i can just only wait for you..

to appear under that very tree..
and i shall approach you..
to get to know you..
and have a deeper conversation

what are you actually????

to be continued....

if I fell..

if i fell in love with you..
would you please promise to be true
would you help me to understand
cos i've been in love before
i learnt tat love was more than messaging and dating

if i give my heart to you
a "sure" is a must from the very start
so tat i noe you would love me more than him/her

if i trust you
please dont run and hide

and if i love you
please dont hurt my pride
cos i couldnt stand the pain
i would be sad if i know love wasnt there
so i hope you see
that i would love to love you

it is for everybody who wants to start it for the second time...

Argh!!!

malam smalam kitorang ade tournament futsal...i felt so nervous for a moment..not only me, everybody too hehehe..we played very well in the first match but luck was not on our side..we lost..i didnt play in the 1st match..so i just sat down and watch them play..seriously we really could have win the game but..haih..

it was my turn to play in the second match..at first i did a couple of silly touches on the ball. we nearly conceded because of my mistake..but after i got my rythm..hehehe piler and samak was so close to score the opening goal..and we were very solid at the back..i guarded our fortress very well hehehe

in the second half i was substituted with saring..we scored finlly..we defended but again..we concede..its a draw...arghhhhh!!i was so pissed off!! but they did their best..we waited for our third match and this time we really wanna win it..our opponent this time was damn good we lost 2-1 to them..

huhuhu we lost....it was so close...i wish i could repeat the time hehehe hmm well its our fate so we have to accept it...tp lepas da main habis2an...ape lg..sakit2 badan le jawabnye..we stop at the mamak restaurant for our late dinner..boy, i was so hungry...then i fell asleep in the bus due to fatigue..

Headache

i woke up this morning and i had a great headache..i lay down for a while and thinking bout myself...am i satisfied with my life, what i achieve right now? am i always hurt people's feeling or made them feel annoyed? perhaps tis were the reasons to my headache that i had..i cant stop thinking "it" ...it keeps coming back again and again..

during the class i was still in agony..felt like sumthing is burning in my head...today it was Aus turn to deliver his speech..gues wat? he talked bout parents spending time with their children..all tat i could remember was sumting like..money cant buy love and sumting like that...well i think it depends on the situation..

last nite i sms with her and she said sumting bout me and there were certain parts tat i dont really understand..shud i asked her? maybe its too late..i shud realy think bout what she mean..u noe..to improve my self...i'll never give up in anything tat i do until i satisfied..

aus speech was still ringing in my head..he tried so hard to make us cry..but it didnt happen...sory aus, i was not in the mood..i wonder if u realy can make me cry..hahaha

The Annual Grand Meeting..

last nite i attended the AGM with my frens..the men were required to wear black while the ladies, red. so we all menggeledah almari kitorang untuk mencari pakaian kitorang. ive found mine finally..jus kept it simple, black jeans and black tshirt..unlike my frenz, mengalahkan artis hehehe..

so we arrived at the scene..trase macm pg anugerah plak..we waited outside and judged the people's clothing hehehe..after we finished mencapab we all went inside the hall and while the YDP was giving the speech..we took our pictures but unfortunately gambar tu sme blur...apelaaa
overall it was fun..

2hours...then it was time to eat hahaha i was starved to death..got my foods and drinks..so i went back to the hostel and ate it but i still hungry...oh yeah the best dress was won by a guy who wore baju melayu and serban..macm xkne je haha..the end..

The Photoshoot

now that we're in the second semester so we decided to take pictures of our class..so again, piller, our cameraman took the pictures!!!we're really having fun with the photo session hahaha!
actually there's a lot of pictures but im too lazy to upload it so i just uploaded this one..me and Napi.

There are so many things in this life that we cannot change, so many things that is inevitable. We should accept it as they are and just face it, heads up and move on.

The T-shirt

we're bored,then piler came up with a brilliant idea haha...so we designed this shirt for the masscomm's students..hm cantik x? we've published it in the facebook and we received a lots of positive comment hahaha! actuallt baju ni warne merah tp ble da upload die tbe2 jd warne biru

Please Forgive Me....

the morning breeze was so cold...im freezing hehe i quickly dressed up and went to ATM machine to draw rm50 cos i wanted to buy a text book. after a long q finally it was my turn..ok, ni part yang ak xske..kad ak telah ditelan oleh mesin ATM yang durjana tu!! argh malu ak..da la blambak pmpuan bratur kat blakang ak!!!argh!!why me?

so i controll my macho but deep inside my heart, only god knows...haha i called my dad and he decided to come here and settle the problem by the way he has a meeting in PD. during the class, i cant focused on the topic that the lecturer was blabbering about. i kept thinking bout my AtM card URGHHH i was so worried.

Miss F suddenly talked about parents...she said why we can easily say i love u sayang to our boyfriends or grlfrens? why is it so hard to say I love u dad or i love you mom when you're finish talking with them on the phone or whatever the medium is? i felt like a thunder just struck me in my heart..ive been thinking bout tat after she said that...ive never say that to my parent..yeah..im a bad son..ive never say that to them..SHOOT!!! i also cant imagine im hugging my mother or kiss her on the cheek...oh god...please help me..

the class was finished and my dad was already arrived to take me to the bank..in the car, it was so quiet..we only had a short conversation...i was still thinking bout the lecturer's word...we stop to have our lunch together..it had been a long time since we had lunch together...da lame ak xmakan ngan die..hm i looked at his face, the face that used to make me laugh when i was still a baby...to be truth im not close to both of my parent..ak x rapat sangat ngan diorang..

finally we've settled the ATM card..i had to make a new one..he sent me back to my hostel..on the way back.he said "kalau xde duit cakap, jangan diam je.." then i said "okay" hmm yup i always kept it down when i have financial problem cos ak xnak susahkan diorang...bile diorang tanye bru ak ckap..kalo x, memang ak blapar la...so we arrived at my hostel and when i was about to go out from the car..he gave me rm 120...not much but i really need it actually..after i thanked him, i shook his hand but that L word just wont come out from my mouth..so to relief the pain and sadness i'll just say it here..I love you dad, i love you mom...ive done so much sins to you both whether i mean it or dun mean it, please forgive me.. i hoped 1 day,they know how much i love them...hope its not too late..

All Alone....

i stay up until 4 last nite playing computer games with my friends.. i lost 2 matches and won 3..
9 in the morning i woke up and found out that i was all alone in my room then i remembered 1 of my friends said to me last nite about their plans to go to the Pc Fair at MP. so i was all alone and a lil bit angry to Kupan cos he beat me last night URGHHH!!!

after ive taken my shower i went straight to the cafe to buy something to eat. i bought Nasi Lemak and ate it in my room..i felt so miserable eating all alone hmmm the next thing was i opened my laptop and watched movies but im not into it....i didnt laugh and i didnt smile..hehe weird rite

i decided to sleep hmm i still didnt prepare for the test..im so worried hahaha...i slept until 7.....then i heard noises,theyre back!!!! they showed me the Man Utd jersey that they bought and i was sooooo jelez!!!! just wait till i get my money..i'll buy one with my name on it!!hahaha

Complicated

Last night i tried to kill my free time after ive watched Syurga Cinta with my roomate, the movie was quite impressive and i gave it 3 out of 5. Finally i remembered an unfinished bussiness with som1 so i opened my laptop and Yes!!!she's there..so i say hello to her..she gave me a good respond, in fact she was waiting for me.

she said to me that she loves egypt and planned to stay there for the rest of her life!! whatta?? with no time to waste i asked her hows the wedding plan..then she said she cancelled the plan cos it didnt worked out between the two of them so i gave my sympathy to her by telling her that she will find som1 soon Insyaallah..

as i was thinking a topic for our dull conversation, suddenly i my heart nearly pop out from my chest as this words appeared on the screen "I still have feeling towards you u know"...i ignore it and tried to change the topic but then she said this "if 1 day...i want u back, will you accept me?".
i had no choice, i explained everything to her including how my heart fall for another girl and my feeling towards her which was empty.

After that i told her to stop talking about this topic. she offlined...hm maybe she was mad at me at that time but what can i do bout that?? not long after that i received a text message from her..she said sorry..what a complicated world this is. Oh yeah!! somebody told me that my friend, Faliq hs a secret admire since form 4 and the girl was our former classmate. She thought i knew about this so she hoped i will help her to tell faliq bout her feeling but unfortunately i didnt know a single thing..

Now it was too late cos Faliq has declared his relationship with another girl..the girl was so sad..hm i felt so guilty for not helping her to express her feeling to faliq..if only i knew about that earlier...i think that girl suits with faliq very well...hmmm..

Is It Real?

this morning i nearly fell asleep during the Human Comm class cos it was so boring but then the lecturer talked about something that caught my intention. she asked us whether anyone of us wake up all of a sudden at 3 or 4 in the morning....none of us admit it and we asked why she asked that.

she said that during that period "they"(Ghosts/devils) will try to communicate with us. i dont know why would they try to communicate with us hehe. After seeing half of us looked scared, she told us how to avoid them from disturbing us..1st was never ever sleep in front of the door cos like us, they also use the door to enter.

2nd was dont sleep with your feet in front of the mirror. The way they enter our body is through our feet so thats why we were told to not to sleep in front of the mirror hehehe scared??? well that's all..at least she did try to make the class interesting hehe

tonight im gonna ask my friend, Rambut to see what will he say about this thing cos as far as im concern, he is a coward hehe..

Just Having Fun

it was 3 o'clock in the morning and i had nothing to do cos i have finished all my assignment. then i saw peling dressed up as Pocong so i decided to join them to scare all the part one students. the pocong was good to go and it looked so scary like the real one. after that we went to mukon's room to prank him hehehe...we all waited outside to see any respond.

but it was a failure, mukon spoiled the plan..cos we forgot that he cant see clearly hahaha so on to the next room which was located next to mukon's room but this time it was letti who dressed up as pocong. letti went into the room and made some noise and then we heard some1 screaming loudly the so we all rushed in to see what was happening.

it turned out that letti was the one who was screaming cos he was kicked hahahaha again ...it was a failure...we still have 1 more person but that person was not brave enough to face the fake pocong haha we didnt want anyone die just bcos of this. most of us enjoyed the moment cos everybody was so stressed.

my stomach hurt cos i laughed a lot when i saw the faces of the victim hehe i also recorded it with my handphone. like i said before we all just having fun..haha